strange dream

had the strangest dream....saw a flag green stipe clear middle with some kind of symbol and white stripe. then people running in a panic but they were outlines filled in with symbols all black and white...then darth maul's face floated up and he was grinning..then more panic people running and a tree frog covered in aboriginal designs sitting calmly while panic people run around behind him....then the alarm went off and i woke up .....



upon researching..the following countries have flags similar to the one in my dream..algeria and pakistan.

5:14 am wed morn

dark disturbing dreams. awake more than i slept. i hope this is not a precursor to my day . very queasy stomach/headache,   maybe it was the dreams. oh restful sleep why hast thou forsaken me?

6:22 tuesday morning

watching the news...makes me very sad...so much death and destruction... why?????....it seems that the world is descending into madness, one can only hope the survivors promote peace and cooperation to build a better life for all.
and this strife is not only global..it's local.. everyone i  know is having a stressful, crazy , murphy's law type year . where is this forceful energy of change coming from... this is no gentle change your ways wind... this is more like a smashing hammer of the universe destroying that which no longer works and pushing us to new ways of thinking. life is all about knowing when to hold on, and when to let go...and when we get confused about which to do..the universe /higher power/ goddess/god steps in and gives us a not so gentle nudge in the right direction. if only we could just relearn how to listen to that inner voice/ intuition...we could save ourselves a lot of grief.

inspired

is that our life purpose .. to inspire each other to make dreams reality... to say yes you can when they are thinking.. no i really can't. I think people accidentally inspire others every day in ways they never even realize....leading by example...just being yourself... and sometimes we are blessed to see how we have inspired others.. something as simple as taking the first step to a more fulfilling life....or finding the courage to explore who you are..what or who inspires you? where are your dreams leading you? do you dare to go?   what's holding you back.....to know/to will/to dare...to quote that popular shoe manufacturer....JUST DO IT!!

5:55 am.

early morning moonshine glows snow covered hills, otherworldly atmosphere ..dream walking surrounded by the absence of sound. breathlessly waiting for the unknowable , the unnamed....She brings the light of ageless wisdom dancing moonshine to my soul.

deeja's birthday present

spent the day int he sewing room creating Deeja's new wool coat!! she loves it!!! <3 and i had a great day making it!! epic win/win

sunday morning over easy

lazy morning ..actually slept until 730 !! going to do some creative therapy in the sewing room. to 100.3 the points acoustic morning jams. life is good today.

whew!!

spent the morning doing college stuffs with my son. and the last 7 hours sewing costumes for the school play. made 5 80's style mini skirts, 4 with hand pleated ruffles . had the tunes cranked up in the sewing room and got lost in the creative process.  I really love turning fabric into beautiful wearable art. and i must say... i love spending the day in my sewing room...re-directing negative energy into positive creative flow ..now off to take a nice hot bath and then knitting until bedtime.

5:18 am

strange zephyr banshee howls raging through the night. bending shaping forming new worlds to her will. screaming through treetops , rattling souls, WAKE UP !  eclectic energy crackles spontaneous imagination,  
shaking up moon beams dancing dervishes in my heart

unexpected beauty

if you have the eyes to see...

destiny

do we make our own destiny , do our choices in life create the path we follow....or is our life a pre-ordained sequence of events that we are programmed to follow...do we really have free will, can we change the future...or are we on a preset course of soul learning put in motion before we were born?

tea

"the first sip is joy, the second is gladness, the third is serenity, the fourth is madness, the fifth is ecstasy.” jack kerouac

tea and love have a lot of similarities...

present moment

my goal for today is to stay present in each moment. to live each minute with compassion , for my self and others. to keep that calm inner light glowing and not let it be overshadowed by negative emotion. wish me luck :)

clarity

in the quiet of the pre-dawn morning when all is peace, the mind finds clear pathways to walk and ruminate. before the clutter of daily life submerges thoughts under the weight of just getting through the day. i wander the road ahead and wonder if this path i chose will lead to joy or sorrow, and i realize it doesn't matter. as long as i can find my inner light, i will carry on through it all. learning life lessons, gaining wisdom for my soul.

waves

loneliness crashes down upon my soul.. waves and waves of melancholy ...definitely not feeling the joy of this love soaked holiday. bleah!!!

poem for today.....

Hope     

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune--without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

Emily Dickinson

Walt Whitman Re-examine all you have been told . . . Dismiss what insults your Soul.

re-examining all i thought was true and certain. searching for a safe haven from a storm of emotions that have shaken my foundation. unintentional wounding opening old scars.  all i once believed in crumbles to dust .. mixed with tears creates mortar for new walls ....I am not the world that sustains you .. that keeps you on the path to living...I am a small moon orbiting your reality ....is that an insult to my soul.....

insignificant

there are worlds in a grain of sand...i am not a grain of sand. there are no worlds in me for anyone.

a very merry un-birthday

today I am 38 years old.

someday never comes

Alice's Tea Cup

The most amazing un-birthday breakfast ever!! so very yummy. and some much needed joy! I really enjoyed my visit here, highly recommend this to anyone visiting NYC.

random musings

understanding does not bring peace.  sometimes the universe steers you in directions you don't want to go.
sometimes forever isn't. love is all you need, but you don't always get what you need.. on the outside looking in is not a fun place to be. sometimes no matter how hard you try, life is not what you make it...things happen to steer you down a path not of your own choosing...fighting the winds of change is exhausting and futile..

was playing in my head when i woke up this morning