men pbbbbllllttt!!!

I think the problem with all my relationships in the past is that they were with men. i think men are genetically hard wired to cheat. no matter how much you do for them to make them happy, they always are looking to the next best thing. a pretty girl smiles and they salivate like pavlov's dog. they have no understanding or concept of trust, love, and commitment. all my life i have been used and lied to by males. and i know i bear some responsibility as i allowed it to happen. but no more.... i am so done busting my ass to make a man happy...

good friends

today i am thankful for the good people i have in my life. had a wonderful beach bbq yesterday. swimming in the lake, digging for fresh water mussels with our toes , and skipping them across the water. and the highlight of our evening..two mating dragonflies on my forehead..we had a feast fit for queens, and all the time in the world. laughter, and good conversation.. thanks Tami and Mark...

getting back to myself

spent my entire day in the sewing room. played hooky from all my responsibilities and worked on a quilt for my bed. felt good to immerse myself in creativity. lost in the flow of ideas becoming mini fabric masterpieces joined to a cohesive whole. and following a path back to my own heart...sloughing off the dead weight of anger and hate...and filling the spaces with a quiet peace created from following my bliss...

i wish the world could see her as she truly is

"This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly"...... too bad the person who made this their facebook status has no idea what honesty is. she uses her power to seduce other people's spouses..male and female...she uses her power to choose what she wants, and takes it..regardless of how it will make other people feel. or how much havoc she will wreak in their lives. ..she has no thought for anyone but herself...she has left a path of emotional destruction...she is selfish beyond reason, and lost in her alcoholic haze of madness. i truly pray that karma will give her exactly what she deserves.....this is the face of a prevaricating vodka infused narcissistic promiscous person.

Macy's fireworks in nyc..anticipation

escaping

came to NYC to clear my head of junk.
gonna relax, watch fireworks with my kids
and not think about anything
a mini mind vacation
:)

fresh look

taking a fresh look through tear washed eyes
i see clearly the our compatibility is questionable
we do not hold to the same values
we do not have similar goals
we are as different as night and day
i look at you now, and wonder
what was i thinking
i have evolved and changed
i am not the same person you married
and i am tired of forgiving you
for defiling the sanctity of our vows
i know you say
you are on the straight and narrow road
you are going to be a good husband
i say ..for how long
i think you are 12 years too late
i have no faith left in you
our bridge of trust has been destroyed
i don't think the phoenix can rise from these ashes
my river of tears has washed them all away