ramblings

time heals all wounds it's true, but what the sages failed to mention is that in the healing changes are wrought. when people step through the black hole of tragedy they are not the same when they arrive on the other side. perceptions of the world filtered through new vision. priorities re-arranged ,what once was deemed important now relegated to the dusty shelves of memory. relationships changed some made better /stronger ..some lost along the way. it's like each person involved is reborn through their pain and new pathways to their future are laid before them. and things once cherished fall away as their focus changes by necessity to adjust to the new way of life. Tragedies leave scars both seen and unseen. I think it's the unseen ones that are the hardest to learn to live with.....

miracle

today visited the ruins...so many things lost...but the most important was saved...and it is truly a miracle .

dancing the light

in that darkest hour before the sun takes it's first breath, we dance the light,  calling forth a bright beam of hope from the deep despairing abyss....dance the spiral goddess dream, healing the whole...

time

changes everything...ushering in new ways of being...leaving behind once loved dreams...each new day brings challenges ,joys ,sorrows...that re-work my soul.  who will I be tomorrow...who will be there with me dancing darkness to light ?

Future ?

I wish I could see what the future holds....swimming in a sea of uncertainty....and if I try to touch down I may drown.

suddenly i see

understanding can come like a freight train through your mind. sinking truth into your soul. the beetles got it right..Let It Be...there will be an answer.

direction unknown

I am standing at the crossroads of tragedy and i don't know where to go from here. what is best? how the hell do I know I am only human and not privy to the "plan" . do I have the strength to pull them all up this ladder of hope? how does healing begin? how do we get past the anger and the blame? this nightmare will haunt us all for possibly a lifetime.....where is my golden compass to help me find the way?

seconds

life changes..less than 90 seconds...and your world is flipped on its axis...another 90 seconds could've spelled complete disaster....everything you think you know...means nothing...there are no words...just enormous feelings...and a wish to take away all the pain....and anger at the unfairness of the twisty turns of life...and raging at a universe that allows innocents to suffer...life reduced to minutes/numbers/ tests...an hourly struggle to stay positive and find small handles of hope to cling to...standing by helplessly as loved ones suffer grief, blame, anger, frustration....goddess grant me the courage and the strength to be a rock in this storm ..goddess grant me the wisdom and the words to know the right path....let my heart be a guiding light and my hands a healing touch..

wtf

why do tragically bad things happen to good people? what could a twelve year old boy have done to deserve to be burned in house fire ? how could any god/goddess allow that to happen? yeah i know there is this great big plan for everyone, and we all have a path to follow...but how does this make sense ? and how do we pray to this god/goddess to heal and help this boy , when they could have prevented the whole thing? life is not fair and parents should not have to go through this anguish and a child should not have to suffer so much pain.

belly laughs

not only are they good for the abs..they are good for the soul. so much joy and laughter today , lots of silly humor and three stooges goofies. I really love my job. i work with some amazing people. <3

snow day

looks like the kiddies get an extra day off this week as we are in  the grip of a nor'easter. did bodyflow 51 this am..great release feeling amazing today. loving this life and the people i share my heart with. off to enjoy a surprise breakfast courtesy of my beautiful daughter Deeja. life is good :)

sock hop

so they are having a sock hop at the school on saturday...soooo tomorrow i am off to the fabric store to design a poodle skirt punk rock style :) woot woot!!!

knitting frenzy

spent the first days of the new year knitting, hats galore!!