direction unknown

I am standing at the crossroads of tragedy and i don't know where to go from here. what is best? how the hell do I know I am only human and not privy to the "plan" . do I have the strength to pull them all up this ladder of hope? how does healing begin? how do we get past the anger and the blame? this nightmare will haunt us all for possibly a lifetime.....where is my golden compass to help me find the way?